
-Bob Irwin (66 years-old), father of Steve "The Crocodile Hunter"
Irwin on his son dying while doing a job he loved.
I was thinking about the Crocodile Hunter, who died on Monday after being attacked by a Stingray while filming a documentary in. I thought about Irwin quite a bit actually, wondering about some of the things he told family and friends, and even about his love for his livelyhood.
I love my job. I don't have a television show that revolves around me (yet) and I'm not famous but I love my job and the people I work with. Seriously. If I could marry it, I would.
Irwin loved his job too. He told his family and he mentioned it a few times in interviews that if he died while filming, he would want it all captured on film for the world to see. Everyone including his dad has said that he died doing what he loved doing, "Steve knew the risks involved with the type of work he was doing, and he wouldn't have wanted it any other way."
I love my job but I don't want to die doing it. Not for any case, client, or attorney and truth be told I don't know if there is anything I love in this life that if I died doing it, someone could say, At least he died doing what he loved!
Friend 1: Didya hear about Sancho?
Friend 2: Yeah, it's horrible. I'm really going to that bastard.
Friend1: Yeah, I will too, but at least he died doing what he loved.
Friend 2: What the hell are you talking about?
Friend 1: What? He died doing what he loved didn't he?
Friend 2: No, he didn't. He was driving home and he got hit by a bus.
Friend 1: Oh.
Friend 2: If he had died doing what he loved, it would have been very traumatic for his wife, his girlfriend and Penelope Cruz.
Friend 1: Huh?
I could do this conversation with my two friends all day. One day, if I am lucky enough to be able to add a third friend, I'll make sure to include their imaginary conversations also.
I know you're all out there, I can hear you breathing.
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Things have been busy with me. On the work front, things are good BUT fricking busy. It's actually out of control busy with no end in site to the madness. So I guess, things aren't as good as they could be. There is a fine line between constructive busy and I'm so fucking swamped I want to scream busy.
A very fine line.
I'm getting a little discouraged to be honest with you. I got into this work to make a difference and I truly believe that I did make a difference for a while. I don't think anyone did better or more complete investigation on a case than me.
Lately though, things have been different. I've gone from being able to give a case 150% of my attention going above and beyond to make sure that everything that could be done is done, to giving a case 50% of my attention and completing the bare minimum necessary...meaning just sticking to the PD's investigation request, to the letter. Nothing more, nothing less.
It's because of the caseload. I don't know how long I can go feeling like this but I have faith that it will get better in the next month or so. If it doesn't...well, I'll cross that bridge when and if I get to it.
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My Love life.
It's complicated and sometimes just makes me wish I could just get hit by a bus.
When I have the stomach for it, I'll explain more. Until then, its easier for me to stay busy at work digging myself out of a pile of new requests that just might be end of me.